by Huina Zheng

 

After the fire that took her son, a firefighter, the medal beside his portrait glinted coldly, day after day.

Ling curled up in the corner, unmoving. The house was thick with silence, so heavy it seemed the walls were weeping. Each morning, she watched the sunlight crawl across the frame, linger on the medal, then slide away. Slowly. Indifferently. The light came and went, but her son never returned.

That evening, while tidying his bookshelf, her fingertips brushed something hard beneath the leather cover of an old journal. She peeled back the lining. A platinum ring lay quietly inside. Small. Cold. Pressing into her palm.

A promise he never had the chance to speak.

For weeks, grief had sealed her inside the house. That day, she packed a small bag, slipped the ring into the inner pocket of her coat, close to her heart, and bought a ticket to the next province. She would carry this unfinished love to the girl she had only seen in her son’s photos.

The train thundered through the night. She leaned against the cold window, her head knocking gently in rhythm with the rails. Sleep came and went; outside, her reflection blurred and broke against the racing dark. Before dawn, the door hissed open. The crowd pushed her out onto a gray platform wrapped in wet fog. The air stung her eyes.

The girl who opened the door wore an oversized, sagging sweater, her body swaying faintly in the frame. Ling froze. The crimson wool and the tiny gold star stitched at the chest—she knew them. She had knitted that sweater herself for her son, his favorite in college. The girl’s hair was matted, her face drained of color, fragile as paper soaked and wrung dry.

Ling’s hand clenched inside her pocket. The small ring burned against her palm, pulsing like a trapped sparrow. She parted her lips. Those words she had rehearsed through the long night, the words from his diary, were ready to spill out. But then she saw the girl’s eyes—dull, bloodshot, emptied of life. She smelled the faint, greasy scent of unwashed hair. All the words froze. A deeper, helpless pity rose and held her still.

Ling lifted her other trembling hand and brushed a strand of brittle hair from the girl’s forehead. Her voice was barely carried by the wind.

“Forget him, child.”

The ring never saw daylight again. It remained in her pocket as she turned away, stepping into the chill air of the platform. She stood there for a while, listening to the low hum of distant rails—a sound like the earth mourning itself. Cold wind swept across her damp cheeks. She reached into her pocket; her fingertip found the ring once more. Cold. Silent.

Far away, the endless rails kept humming through the drizzle, leading toward a place where no paths would ever meet again.

 


Huina Zheng is a writer and college essay coach based in Guangzhou, China. Her work appears in Baltimore Review, Variant Literature, Midway Journal, and other journals. She’s a four-time Best of the Net, three-time Pushcart, and Best Small Fictions nominee.


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